Lately, my mind has been working on full gear. It’s constantly flooded with thoughts — plans, projects, work, my daughters, and everything else that comes with being a 52-year-old mother, wife, daughter, daughter-in-law, and sister-in-law. It feels like my brain is juggling a hundred tabs open at once, and I can’t find the “shut down” button.
At night, when I finally lie down hoping to rest, my mind refuses to cooperate. It races through to-do lists, family matters, and random worries — everything from what to cook tomorrow to whether I remembered to send that message or pay that bill. The result? Sleepless nights and a very forgetful me.
In just two weeks, I left food that I bought from one shop at another shop, left my empty tiffin carrier in a restaurant, and even left my food and groceries in the car boot. Thankfully, I always realize it after I reach home — but by then, I’ve already changed into my house clothes! The frustration of having to get dressed again, go down to the basement, or worse, drive back out during lunch-hour traffic when parking is impossible, is just… argh!
I know things in my life won’t stabilize anytime soon. My mind will continue to be in this “crazy mode” — thinking, strategizing, planning, organizing, and worrying about everything under the sun. But I’ve decided that for now, I need to create small mechanisms to help myself — reminders, checklists, and most importantly, the presence of mind.
When I’m out, I must consciously remind myself to stay in the moment. Not to let my thoughts wander to what’s next or what’s pending. Just be where I am. Easier said than done, right?
Sometimes I joke that I sound like an old lady with early dementia — LOL! But maybe it’s not dementia. Maybe it’s just the mental load of modern motherhood — something every woman who wears a dozen hats can relate to.
Have you been like this before? Forgetting things because your brain is simply too full? If yes, then you’re definitely not alone.
Lately, I've been going through some stuff, and listening to songs from my younger days always gives me joy and light. Here's one of my all-time favorite songs by the Bee Gees - Too Much Heaven.
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